Tarot Overload Day 5

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Happy Friday!

Here is another installment of the Tarot Overload Challenge by Hermit's Mirror. If you're curious and want to read how the earlier days went, you can find them here: 1, 2, 3, 4.

Onward!


The Prompt

What recurring life wound is at the root of this lesson (of getting up and trying again)?

The Pull

I drew the page by shuffling six times and pulling the sixth card up from the bottom of the deck. First of only minors so far in this challenge.

Looking at these cards just through imagery and tarot meaning, I am seeing the recurring theme of lack (mentality) and instability. I certainly have money wounds to heal. I have been in the process of healing that six of pentacles receiver/asking for help wound for about 7 years. I am not perfect, and it has been a hard journey, but I am getting there. I know I can eventually improve and begin to heal these wounds around money and abundance that stem from childhood, capitalism, etc.

Astrology Associations

The Six of Pentacles represents the Moon in Taurus. The Page of Wands is the Earth of Earth. I don't have much earth in my chart, and I don't have any Taurus in my chart.

My moon is in Aries and in the second house. This house is about finances and money. The moon being about emotions has definitely left me an emotional wreck when it comes to money. I am terrified of it, but I also am terrified to be without it (for obvious reasons), and I have also internalized all of my dad's lack mentality. Add in the ADHD impulse spending that I inherited from my mom, and I am a mess. An absolute mess when it comes to feeling confident about money and abundance.

 I am also doing Josephine's manifestation tarot challenge right now, and that is definitely helping. The cards that have been coming out have been so positive like my higher self knows I can manifest and do it well, even if my physical being is crying and dying inside about finances.

I know I am strong enough to break through this, to align with abundance, to stop caring so much so I can get into the flow. I love the Earth of Earth energy of the Page because Earth is abundance. It is stability. It is cycles of growth, bloom, fruit, and rest. I need to release this hold capitalism has on my, trust that these natural cycles will provide and help heal my wounds around money and abundance.

Earth is also where I started my healing journey 6 or 7 years ago. I started with meditation with crystals under a giant and old Doug Fir. I sat there, and I was terrified because people could see me, but I did it. I walked up that hill as often as I could for 5 years. I did it because I was in so much pain from my anxiety that I would spend days crying. The earth heals, and I am grateful to her.

Summary

I am strong enough (maybe not alone, but still strong enough) to take on these wounds that have been passed down through DNA, through time, through environment and upbringing. I can somehow balance the need for resources with my absolute disdain for this society's demand for money... a system of pretend at this point. A make believe game that is real enough to kill people. I can figure out the balance. I can figure out growth and abundance while still aligning with love and humanity.

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