Tarot Overload Day 6

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 Hello, beauties!

Here is another installment of the Tarot Overload Challenge by Hermit's Mirror. If you're curious and want to read how the earlier days went, you can find them here: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5.


The Prompt

How has my wound interfered with my path in the past?

The Pull

I shuffled like I normally do and the Seven of Pentacles flew out. I tried the arc drawing again like I dd in day 1. The Ace of Wands came out for that guided draw.

My (money/abundance) wound has kept me in the rat race mindset: rest is for the weak, artists can't and don't prosper, and creativity is not for me. I am not creative. My work is my life. 

But none of that is true. This wound has held me back over and over. 

I am creative. I can live off my creative endeavors. I am multi-faceted.

Astrology Associations

I'll be honest. I wasn't sure where this was going to go. A notebook page later, and I am connecting so many parts of my life that have been repeating themes that have always felt like slogging through quick quicksand and despair.

The Seven of Pentacles is represented by Saturn in Taurus. I do not have any Taurus in my chart, but my Saturn is in Capricorn. I have often resented this because I tend to be a rule follower and thrive on structure. I want to be free, but then I realize how much chaos is in freedom in this current societal structure, and I come running back to the safety of my box.

My Saturn is in the 10th house which covers careers. This placement (Saturn in 10th house and Capricorn) relates perfectly to my wound and its interference. My career tends to be my entire purpose, my be all, end all. It is my life. I thought education was the place for my drive and ambition, but I think it's time to expand my very rigorous and earthy professional skill set to bringing accessibility to spirituality, to bringing people a safe space to practice and learn within community, and to help connect other and connect with others. There is so much to learn from one another.

The Ace of Wands represents the root of fire. It is the passion and drive I feel in my work which allows me to get stuck in the rat race mindset. I can allow myself to heal the money and abundance wound by relinquishing control and following the fire within. 

My emotional planets (moon and mars) are ruled by fire. My emotions are very volatile, and my passion runs hot and burns. I see exactly how I get sucked into the "my job is my life" rut because I can't work and be successful without being passionate about what I am doing. 

Summary

This was a very eye-opening reading for me. The part about having more of a spiritually aligned career is very true. I am still in education because I can't give up my income, public service for student loan forgiveness, and health insurance, but I have been making the steps to change my position in life.

I have started a Mighty Networks where I hope to build a community for folks of all levels to come and join as a community, a place to learn from others, and a place to you our voices and tell our stories. I hope to see you there.

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